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is that not obsession? to make something of worship for someone you dont know personally? or do you group that with respect, someone making something without needing to know that person personally?
It all depends to what lengths the person takes the behaviour to. Respecting boundaries is respect, crossing them repeatedly out of infatuation is obsession.
If you refer to the altar for me question, it can mean different things to different people. I do not know why the person wishes to make one, but as long as they are respectful towards me, I do not mind it. I suppose because I am spiritual and know an altar can serve many different purposes, I do not find it as strange. Cruoreye replied 14 hours ago
If you refer to the altar for me question, it can mean different things to different people. I do not know why the person wishes to make one, but as long as they are respectful towards me, I do not mind it. I suppose because I am spiritual and know an altar can serve many different purposes, I do not find it as strange. Cruoreye replied 14 hours ago
So do you live alone or with someone like family etc?
I live alone with my cats and spirit family.
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1 day ago
Were you born in summer? Around this time? I can not point out what about you makes that make sense to me. And by any chance were you born on Friday 13th? You don't have to post this on your story because I probably sound crazy.
I was. And, I was. “Lucky star” or “unlucky date”, one can pick and choose.
For a while my birthday was a horrible time for me every year, which turned into just spending it like any normal day, which turned into forgetting it is my birthday. And sort of stayed there. I never really do anything for it or acknowledge it much nowadays since, I do not see the point or have a reason to really. I do not inherently hate it or anything of the sort however, I dislike to bring attention to myself so the mere thought just makes me uncomfortable. And spending it doing nothing special remains comfortable.
This year however, everyone around me seems to be hyper aware that my birthday is coming up and I am not certain why or what that entails. I am not sure, but it is odd enough for me to have noticed it as unusual. Past just “oh people care about my birthday now”.
Strange happenings.
Also do not worry. I stopped worrying bout sounding crazy some time ago and freely sounding crazy makes your life so much less stressful. Coming from a medium. You will attract who matches it, trust. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
For a while my birthday was a horrible time for me every year, which turned into just spending it like any normal day, which turned into forgetting it is my birthday. And sort of stayed there. I never really do anything for it or acknowledge it much nowadays since, I do not see the point or have a reason to really. I do not inherently hate it or anything of the sort however, I dislike to bring attention to myself so the mere thought just makes me uncomfortable. And spending it doing nothing special remains comfortable.
This year however, everyone around me seems to be hyper aware that my birthday is coming up and I am not certain why or what that entails. I am not sure, but it is odd enough for me to have noticed it as unusual. Past just “oh people care about my birthday now”.
Strange happenings.
Also do not worry. I stopped worrying bout sounding crazy some time ago and freely sounding crazy makes your life so much less stressful. Coming from a medium. You will attract who matches it, trust. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
What's Croatia like? Do you enjoy living there?
In comparison to Germany, as it is the only other country I have lived in for an extended period of time, I like to say that Germany is quite the sterile country in about every way, neat and in order and clean, while Croatia is truly the Wild West. In every way. And I suppose since I have grown up here, even though Germany is much more advanced than Croatia is in many ways, I simply know how to exist here better than there. My peasant self knows how to interact with other peasants better than other people. And I only realized this after I came back.
Naturally, many circumstances aside from the country itself influenced my experience, however overall I feel better here on some core level. It is not the most advanced country in the world yet it is not the worst one either, and it has bettered in that regard since I left. People here are, very on point, so to speak. Few people are nice and they are kind instead, meaning if someone does not like you, you will likely be well aware of it, and on the other side of that if they do like you, you will also be very aware of it. Which I in truth much prefer, I like how direct people here are generally. They are also overall quite helpful and community oriented. Even when you visits the capital you feel that village atmosphere some. And when in the countryside it is very noticeable. There is more, openness. Sometimes it is good and sometimes not so much.
I do miss the German weather however, ajme. What I would not give for the perpetual rain now. Loved that there.
After finally settling here after nearly a year, I enjoy living here alone with Them and the cats. I can set myself to function well enough in ways I need to. And even though I still have quite bad periods of time and struggle, overall I have my much cherished peace and space to be “me with Them” in. It suits us well. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
Naturally, many circumstances aside from the country itself influenced my experience, however overall I feel better here on some core level. It is not the most advanced country in the world yet it is not the worst one either, and it has bettered in that regard since I left. People here are, very on point, so to speak. Few people are nice and they are kind instead, meaning if someone does not like you, you will likely be well aware of it, and on the other side of that if they do like you, you will also be very aware of it. Which I in truth much prefer, I like how direct people here are generally. They are also overall quite helpful and community oriented. Even when you visits the capital you feel that village atmosphere some. And when in the countryside it is very noticeable. There is more, openness. Sometimes it is good and sometimes not so much.
I do miss the German weather however, ajme. What I would not give for the perpetual rain now. Loved that there.
After finally settling here after nearly a year, I enjoy living here alone with Them and the cats. I can set myself to function well enough in ways I need to. And even though I still have quite bad periods of time and struggle, overall I have my much cherished peace and space to be “me with Them” in. It suits us well. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
That s*cks people have been weird to you online, when I had a stronger social media presence a few years ago there were some creeps. Not sure why people get so obsessed with people they've never met
Many possible reasons although I can say, especially if you remain mainly anonymous and do not show your face nor voice, yet someone enjoys what you do, exactly because they never met you. Mystery tends to be alluring and there remains much space to make up the rest of you how they like the best. Social media in general tends to portray a person as less ‘normal person’ like than what they truly are. And sometimes it goes very wrong, either because of unmet needs or obsession or such. Other times, jealousy/envy, at least in my experience. I was told so.
Fortunately, everyone is quite kind and respectful now, towards me and each other, and I do hope it remains that way.
Otherwise I may have to utilize the Holy Water Hose.
And you would not like me, the Father, to utilize the Holy Water Hose. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
Fortunately, everyone is quite kind and respectful now, towards me and each other, and I do hope it remains that way.
Otherwise I may have to utilize the Holy Water Hose.
And you would not like me, the Father, to utilize the Holy Water Hose. Cruoreye replied 1 day ago
Can we please hear your voice? I am curious about Croatian! =)
Not for now although, perhaps once. I am not too comfortable with speaking on camera.
One thing I realised recently is that, since I left Germany where I spoke English more than Croatian, my accent became much more noticeable again. One day perhaps you hear me be a clear Slav even in English. Cruoreye replied 3 days ago
One thing I realised recently is that, since I left Germany where I spoke English more than Croatian, my accent became much more noticeable again. One day perhaps you hear me be a clear Slav even in English. Cruoreye replied 3 days ago
how are you surviving the heat?
Depends on the day, trying to stay as cool as possible but I will not lie, some days I get unwell from it still. Heat will always be difficult for me to handle.
Hope you are dealing with it better than I at least. Cruoreye replied 5 days ago
Hope you are dealing with it better than I at least. Cruoreye replied 5 days ago
Would you be off put by someone making something similar to that of a shrine for / about you?
For me? Hm, as long as you are not, for the lack of a better term, “weird” about it, I suppose not. I say only because I have had a number of negative experiences with people becoming infatuated with me and taking it a bit to a lot too far.
Even though mostly dedicated to Them, I have a couple of objects for the people I care about on my altars so I envision it being similar here perhaps.
Feels odd for someone who makes altars for others being asked to have an altar made about them. I appreciate the thought, thank you. If you do make it and are willing to show, I would like to see it. Cruoreye replied 13 days ago
Even though mostly dedicated to Them, I have a couple of objects for the people I care about on my altars so I envision it being similar here perhaps.
Feels odd for someone who makes altars for others being asked to have an altar made about them. I appreciate the thought, thank you. If you do make it and are willing to show, I would like to see it. Cruoreye replied 13 days ago
If you had the occasion, would you meet the other churchgoers to have irl small peasant hour? All hypothetical, of course.
I thought about it before and, theoretically speaking, I would. I think being outside around an open fire speaking with likeminded people would be an enjoyable time. However being around any people, especially many at the time, overwhelms me quite quickly so I reckon it would unfortunately not take me long to start zoning out really bad or get the anxiety shakes, even around positive company. I do not joke when I say I would cook my chestnuts, take my coffee and leave to be behind the church with Them after I had greeted everyone, while everyone else remains around the fire.
Secondly, I always have a certain fear people will not truly be how they present themselves to be, or that people will not get along, and someone causing other people or myself issues in real life I would have to deal with is a nightmare for me to think about.
In a hypothetical situation where nothing goes wrong and I do not get overwhelmed in ten minutes, I think it would be at least an interesting, if not an enjoyable time. It is a completely different experience to meet someone online and to meet them in person where you hear their voice and see their behavior and mannerisms in real time. An entire different experience of and perspective on the person.
I would also indeed like to gift everyone something. At least a piece of Angel Aura. Cruoreye replied 15 days ago
Secondly, I always have a certain fear people will not truly be how they present themselves to be, or that people will not get along, and someone causing other people or myself issues in real life I would have to deal with is a nightmare for me to think about.
In a hypothetical situation where nothing goes wrong and I do not get overwhelmed in ten minutes, I think it would be at least an interesting, if not an enjoyable time. It is a completely different experience to meet someone online and to meet them in person where you hear their voice and see their behavior and mannerisms in real time. An entire different experience of and perspective on the person.
I would also indeed like to gift everyone something. At least a piece of Angel Aura. Cruoreye replied 15 days ago
Are your commissions open?
They are not, I closed them years ago and they are closed for the foreseeable future.
I am glad and grateful for the ones I did however, ultimately they stress me out too much and I do not want to do anything which makes art unpleasant or even stressful for me to do because it makes me not want to make it anymore.
Unless something happens and I am forced to reopen them, I plan to only create for us and occasionally other people when I feel like it. Art is something I never want to force, it means too much to me. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
I am glad and grateful for the ones I did however, ultimately they stress me out too much and I do not want to do anything which makes art unpleasant or even stressful for me to do because it makes me not want to make it anymore.
Unless something happens and I am forced to reopen them, I plan to only create for us and occasionally other people when I feel like it. Art is something I never want to force, it means too much to me. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
Do you believe other pantheons are to be considered actual? Greek or norse for example, since you work with the Egyptian one
Yes, I believe any deity people know of exists or has the possibility to. I also believe many spirits which could be considered deities people do not know of also exist.
I simply see them as another type of entity, the label does not really matter to me. I also do not understand them as omnipotent. From my experience and understanding there is a limit to their power and knowledge.
In the same sense I also believe Yahweh likely exists as a deity, but as only one out of many.
I know many people who work with deities from various pantheons and I understand it as us simply finding a place within the circle of that type of entity we belong in. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
I simply see them as another type of entity, the label does not really matter to me. I also do not understand them as omnipotent. From my experience and understanding there is a limit to their power and knowledge.
In the same sense I also believe Yahweh likely exists as a deity, but as only one out of many.
I know many people who work with deities from various pantheons and I understand it as us simply finding a place within the circle of that type of entity we belong in. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
I don’t know if it has been asked before so i will ask again anyways, what does your typical day looks like?
It was asked at least once before but I never really answer this question because it makes me uncomfortable for a reason I cannot explain.
I do not reckon I do anything exciting. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
I do not reckon I do anything exciting. Cruoreye replied 18 days ago
